Diary of a Man in Despair

The journal contains thirty-nine entries covering the period from May 1936 to October 1944. The entries express Reck's passionate hatred of Adolf Hitler and the Nazis, whom Reck describes as "vicious apes."[2]

In one entry, Reck relates a meeting with Heinrich Himmler in 1934 at which Himmler asked Reck for information. Surprised at Himmler's request, Reck asked Himmler why the "Fouché of the Third Reich" (in reference to Joseph Fouché, the notorious French Minister of Police under Napoleon) needed information from him. Reck relates that Himmler clearly had no idea who Fouché was.

Reck states that he had met Hitler a few times, and in the entry for 11 August 1936 he describes an occasion when Hitler had delivered a diatribe that had left Reck and his companions speechless. After Hitler had departed, one of Reck's companions opened a window to let some fresh air in and dispel the feeling of "oppression". It was as if the room had been contaminated by the "unclean essence of a monstrosity."[3]

In the entry for 11 August 1936, Reck describes how he once saw Hitler dining alone in a Munich restaurant, and expresses regret that he had not shot him dead when he had the chance. He regarded Hitler at the time as a character out of a comic strip, and refrained from shooting him, although he had a loaded revolver with him. The entry ends with a prescient description of how Hitler's end will come down upon him from every possible direction.[4]

In the entry for 9 September 1937, Reck describes how he has to hide his journal in the woods to stop the Nazis from finding it, explaining how he is always on the watch and changing the hiding place in case he was being observed.[5]

The final entry, dated 14 October 1944, describes how Reck had been arrested and subsequently charged with "undermining the morale of the armed forces." This was a serious charge carrying the death penalty. In a following hearing, he was cleared and released after the unexpected intervention of an SS general, whom Reck refers to as "General Dtl". Reck then makes the prescient statement that the Nazis will be rooted out, pursued remorselessly and reduced to their true level.[6]

The journal was first published as Tagebuch eines Verzweifelten in 1947 by the Stuttgart publishing house of Burger Verlag, but received little attention at the time. In 1966 it was reprinted as a paperback, which was followed by translation into a number of languages. An English-language translation by Paul Rubens then appeared in 1970, published by the Macmillan Company, and was reprinted in 2000. In 2013 it was republished by The New York Review of Books, with an afterword by Richard J. Evans.