Not My Responsibility

American singer-songwriter Billie Eilish released her debut studio album, When We All Fall Asleep, Where Do We Go?, in March 2019, to commercial success; the album assisted her rise to widespread recognition.[1][2] Her fashion style at the time, specifically her choice to wear baggy clothing, attracted public attention and scrutiny.[3][4] She wore such clothes to avoid sexual objectification, being extremely conscious about her body as a teenager who had struggled with her self-image since 11 years old.[5][6][7] Eilish faced several comments about how she was undesirable and unfeminine for it and how she needed to "act like a woman" to be more attractive.[8]

Upon turning 18 years old, Eilish thought about wearing less oversized clothes. She believed that her detractors would not stop shaming her body anyway, potentially being called a slut, a "fat cow", and a hypocrite who was selling her body, if she were to do so.[7][8] In response, Eilish, who had been using her platform to spread body positivity and counter the culture of body shaming, wrote and produced the short film Not My Responsibility. It addresses misogynistic double standards placed upon young women's appearances, with focus towards public discussion around Eilish's body.[9][10][11]

A spoken-word piece,[12] Not My Responsibility premiered during the Miami date of her Where Do We Go? World Tour on March 9, 2020, as a concert interlude.[13][14] The film was uploaded onto Eilish's YouTube channel on May 26, 2020.[15] Uproxx music editor Derrick Rossignol wrote that, at the time of its release, the film marked Eilish's "biggest statement" about body shaming in her career.[9]

Billie Eilish in baggy clothing, 2020

Eilish in traditionally feminine clothing, 2021

Not My Responsibility is set in a dimly lit room and begins with Eilish in a black jacket. As electronic music plays in the background, she gradually undresses until she is in nothing but a necklace and a black sleeveless shirt. She takes off the shirt and reveals a black bra underneath. Slowly, Eilish submerges herself in a pool of black water and resurfaces, fully covered in the substance.

The film features commentary from Eilish while she undresses. She comments on the public discussion around her physical appearance and acknowledges the varying opinions people hold of her, but she questions whether they "really know" her enough to make assumptions about her body. She criticizes the way in which they decide her worth based on the assumptions in question. Eilish addresses the double standards she faces for wearing anything she likes: "If I wear what is comfortable, I am not a woman. If I shed the layers, I'm a slut." She concludes with the lines, "Is my value based only on your perception? Or is your opinion of me not my responsibility?"

Not My Responsibility received praise from critics. Lars Brandle wrote for Billboard that Eilish got to demonstrate her "creative juices" with the film's visuals, and he commented positively on the background music.[16] Other music journalists, including Althea Legaspi of Rolling Stone,[10] Ruth Kinane of Entertainment Weekly,[17] and Dorany Pineda of Los Angeles Times, found Not My Responsibility an effective, powerful takedown of sexist beauty standards.[18]

Riley Runnells, a Paper author, praised Eilish's showcasing of her vulnerability through the film's thesis,[19] whereas the zealous manner in which she depicted the sentiment was a point of praise for Carolyn Twersky of Seventeen.[20] Teen Vogue's Laura Pitcher shared her empathy for Eilish's longstanding experience with body shaming. With the film, she felt inspired by Eilish's continued dedication to speak out against the misogynistic policing of how women look.[21]

The short film's audio appears as the ninth track of Eilish's second studio album, Happier Than Ever.[22][23] It was released on July 30, 2021, through Darkroom and Interscope Records.[24] The album's lyrical themes discuss the struggles that young women face in the entertainment industry: emotional abuse, power imbalance, and misogyny.[25][26][27] In a Happier Than Ever commentary for Spotify, Eilish described the song's lyrics as "some of my favorite words that I've ever written", though she felt nobody paid attention to its message.[28]

An ambient, electropop track[29][30] that uses synthesizers,[27] "Not My Responsibility" was written in part by Eilish; her older brother, Finneas O'Connell, receives co-writing and production credits. Dave Kutch and Rob Kinelski worked on the mastering and mixing, respectively.[31] The song's instrumental was sampled to create the beat for the following album track, "Overheated",[32] into which the music at the end of "Not My Responsibility" transitions.[33]

Eilish performed "Not My Responsibility" as part of the Disney+ concert film Happier Than Ever: A Love Letter to Los Angeles, released on September 3, 2021.[34] She also included it in the set list of a 2022–2023 world tour in support of Happier Than Ever.[35] Upon the album's release, "Not My Responsibility" charted in four countries[note 1] and peaked at number 125 of the Billboard Global 200.[36]

• Not My Responsibility on YouTube